Today I went to Robert Wood Johnson's hospital and I am going to do volunteer work there. I want to help people and gain experience, because I plan on becoming a nurse. My father has connections there because he works at the cancer institute across the street that works with Robert Wood Johnson. So the director of volunteering wants me to shadow nurses in the adult ICU, which should be a great hands on experience and a great opportunity. The director is letting me do more than the average volunteer because she knows and likes my father. Most volunteers just answer phones, file charts, etc- but I will be following around nurses and helping out with patients, which will be nice. I want to help in any way that I can.
This weekend, or even starting tomorrow, I have decided to be less lazy and start on my Book Of Shadows. I have read a lot of information I deem useful and interesting, and need to give one of the books back to the library, so I am going to start to put some information together. I think I'm going to use a 3-ring binder- it will the easiest to put together and organize and will look neat. I'm excited to put it together!
Also, my siblings and I were supposed to go to the North Brunswick Youth Sports Festival on Saturday, but it is supposed to be raining. I hope it won't rain on Saturday...I was really excited and it should be fun. It's supposed to rain both weekends the festival is there... My luck.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
What I've Been Up To,
I really haven't had anything to rant about recently. So perhaps I'll just tell you what I've been doing...
This past weekend, I hung out with a friend I haven't hung out with in over a year. I slept over her house Saturday. We made pizza, then we went to the A&P to get junk food and soda and then watched The Lovely Bones which was an AMAZING movie, by the way! Then we played HOURS of COD: World Of War. We were killing the Nazi zombies! Then we used the Ouija board a bit, watched some funny stuff on YouTube, and went to bed. The next morning she made me breakfast, killed more Nazi zombies, we went bowling and played 7 games and went to Rita's afterward. It was very nice. I enjoyed it a lot.
Next Tuesday I'm hanging out with another friend (he's an ex and my girlfriend isn't too happy we're hanging out). I haven't hung out with him in almost a year as well. We're just going to hang out at my house and I'm going to make him dinner. He really likes my cooking, god knows why. Not quite sure what we'll do- perhaps we'll play with the Wii and watch movies.
Tomorrow I have 2 doctor's appointments- one at 8:30am and one at 10:30am. May I just let you all know, my doctors are over an hour away. I have to get up at 6:45am. I haven't waken up that early in a very long time. It's going to be pure hell to get up tomorrow morning. First I have to see my endocrinologist and then I have to get a Tuberculosis skin test with my primary doctor's replacement (she's on vacation). Gr.
My girlfriend and I have been fighting a lot lately. I know she doesn't mean to, but she tries to control me constantly. I mean I know she isn't happy my ex (he still has a crush on me) and I are hanging out, but I am a lesbian and he is a guy. I wouldn't cheat on her, ever. I wouldn't cheat on anybody. In the past, she's tried to control what I watch, what music I listen to, who I hang out with, and I got sick of it. She claimed to be trying to protect me. She does so much damage, and she says it's because she cares. I'm getting fed up. I really am. When something isn't about her or if I'm not paying attention to her (even in my own home with my family) she let's EVERYBODY know it by pouting or just looking like death warmed over. If it doesn't change, and soon, I'm not putting up with it anymore. I want to rid my life of immaturity and drama- I'm out of high school for god sakes!
This past weekend, I hung out with a friend I haven't hung out with in over a year. I slept over her house Saturday. We made pizza, then we went to the A&P to get junk food and soda and then watched The Lovely Bones which was an AMAZING movie, by the way! Then we played HOURS of COD: World Of War. We were killing the Nazi zombies! Then we used the Ouija board a bit, watched some funny stuff on YouTube, and went to bed. The next morning she made me breakfast, killed more Nazi zombies, we went bowling and played 7 games and went to Rita's afterward. It was very nice. I enjoyed it a lot.
Next Tuesday I'm hanging out with another friend (he's an ex and my girlfriend isn't too happy we're hanging out). I haven't hung out with him in almost a year as well. We're just going to hang out at my house and I'm going to make him dinner. He really likes my cooking, god knows why. Not quite sure what we'll do- perhaps we'll play with the Wii and watch movies.
Tomorrow I have 2 doctor's appointments- one at 8:30am and one at 10:30am. May I just let you all know, my doctors are over an hour away. I have to get up at 6:45am. I haven't waken up that early in a very long time. It's going to be pure hell to get up tomorrow morning. First I have to see my endocrinologist and then I have to get a Tuberculosis skin test with my primary doctor's replacement (she's on vacation). Gr.
My girlfriend and I have been fighting a lot lately. I know she doesn't mean to, but she tries to control me constantly. I mean I know she isn't happy my ex (he still has a crush on me) and I are hanging out, but I am a lesbian and he is a guy. I wouldn't cheat on her, ever. I wouldn't cheat on anybody. In the past, she's tried to control what I watch, what music I listen to, who I hang out with, and I got sick of it. She claimed to be trying to protect me. She does so much damage, and she says it's because she cares. I'm getting fed up. I really am. When something isn't about her or if I'm not paying attention to her (even in my own home with my family) she let's EVERYBODY know it by pouting or just looking like death warmed over. If it doesn't change, and soon, I'm not putting up with it anymore. I want to rid my life of immaturity and drama- I'm out of high school for god sakes!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Wicca Feels Right.
I was brought up Catholic. It never clicked with me. It was being forced down my throat. I never enjoyed reading about it or going to church. I was always just so disgusted with the cruelty and discrimination that the priests, preachers and bible taught. It always made me angry and uncomfortable. I was for a lot of things they were against. It never fit. When I talked to my parents about not going to CCD anymore, my parents said no I had to go. Even when I told them I didn't believe in the stuff they were teaching and how I thought it was wrong, they said they were my parents and got to choose my religion. So I had to sit and listen to the bullshit. As soon as I made my confirmation, I never once set my foot in that church again.
The past few days I've been doing tons of research on the internet and reading books about Wicca. I really think it's the right religion for me. I started studying it my freshman year of high school, but I got sidetracked for years. I've always been into it and connected with it, but I actually have absolutely nothing going on in my life now, so I've had time to sit down and really study it thoroughly. I agree with all of it. Wicca is definitely for me. It makes me feel peaceful.
Practicing Wicca won't be hard for me. Everything I'm studying seems to be coming natural to me and just fits. It's getting the supplies that will the tough part. I don't have a job, so I don't have money. Any money. I'm as broke as they come. I know my mother will buy them for me for my birthday or Christmas or something like that. She is supportive of me, no matter what, but I feel bad asking her for money, every time I do. She's knows I'd be thankful though. Down side, is my birthday isn't until October and I feel really bad asking her for them out of the blue. I mean I have lots of incense & a burner for it, some rose oil, and some herbs. I mean, that's fine, but I still need the basic altar tools- an athame, a cauldron, candles, a pentagram tile, a chalice, a boline, a wand, and a table I can use as an altar!
So perhaps, I'll just really study and get to know the Craft really well until I can get the tools. People have studied this for years before they started practicing. I read a bunch on it about 4 years ago. Yes, that information has stuck, but I've learned lots more these past few days. I would know to make my own spells and everything with reference guidance, which I would put in my Book of Shadows. The learning never stops with Wicca.
The past few days I've been doing tons of research on the internet and reading books about Wicca. I really think it's the right religion for me. I started studying it my freshman year of high school, but I got sidetracked for years. I've always been into it and connected with it, but I actually have absolutely nothing going on in my life now, so I've had time to sit down and really study it thoroughly. I agree with all of it. Wicca is definitely for me. It makes me feel peaceful.
Practicing Wicca won't be hard for me. Everything I'm studying seems to be coming natural to me and just fits. It's getting the supplies that will the tough part. I don't have a job, so I don't have money. Any money. I'm as broke as they come. I know my mother will buy them for me for my birthday or Christmas or something like that. She is supportive of me, no matter what, but I feel bad asking her for money, every time I do. She's knows I'd be thankful though. Down side, is my birthday isn't until October and I feel really bad asking her for them out of the blue. I mean I have lots of incense & a burner for it, some rose oil, and some herbs. I mean, that's fine, but I still need the basic altar tools- an athame, a cauldron, candles, a pentagram tile, a chalice, a boline, a wand, and a table I can use as an altar!
So perhaps, I'll just really study and get to know the Craft really well until I can get the tools. People have studied this for years before they started practicing. I read a bunch on it about 4 years ago. Yes, that information has stuck, but I've learned lots more these past few days. I would know to make my own spells and everything with reference guidance, which I would put in my Book of Shadows. The learning never stops with Wicca.
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